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Art is like CuttingArt is like cutting.

It takes a lot of
Emotion and Motivation
To do it and it makes
You feel alive.

Both can become a hobby, yet,
Both are challenging.

Until they turn into a feeling
And you just do them automatically
To Feel Something.

Till they don't hurt you anymore,
And you do them out of passion.

Scars might fade,
But art saves.

Don't I deserve it?Why is the flesh so fragile?
Soft skin turns to jagged red lines
The day before the snow came
Three years ago so similar
Right to this day, before the moon came out
This life I live, it frightens them
One week ago I finally went insane
I cut some more jagged lines
Right down to the bone, my love
I hope this hurts you
As much as it hurts me every day
Don't I deserve it, my love?
After all, I blame you
All of my insecurities, spoon fed
Only by you, my sweet love
So go home, let me rest

Do I not deserve it, my love?

Bad ConsequencesFood lost its taste
Drinking lost its fun (I still do it 'cause is a habbit)
Sleeping turned out to be useless
So as listening to my favourite songs
I have no pleasure in reading books or watching my favourite movies
I don't feel like talking to anyone
I don't wanna see anyone

The look in my eyes changed
I can't think of anything else but
that unpleasant subject

I shouldn't have talked about it on therapy...

I'm lyingI'm fucking fine.
Just dandy my dear.
Though my wrist are torn,
my lips sewed shut,
my heart crumbled on the floor
as I curl up in a tiny corner.

I'm still fine.
I am taking my medicine.
I'm doing what you want.
I am crying myself to sleep at night.

I'm just fine.
I have a smile on my face.
I have my sleeves pulled down.
I am standing here, aren't I?

I'm fine.
Why don't you believe me?
Everything is okay.

How are you today?

Oh, me? I'm just fine.

but I'm lying again.

self hatredI don't know how you could see this body as perfect
When all I see is mistakes

I'm not sure how you looked into my eyes and said you saw angels
when all I can see is deep darkness hiding demons in the shadows

You claimed I'm was too skinny and needed to eat
I say I'm not skinny enough and refuse to touch anything

You said I should open
I say I'm under lock and key

You said you where leaving
I want you to stay

You said I was beautiful
I only see ugliness

You said you'd return
I knew you wouldn't

Your last words to me where full of hate
and finally we agreed on something

20 Reasons not to Kill Yourself1.)You are not worthless. Even if you think no one cares about you, someone does.

2.)You're beautiful. If someone ever told you were ugly, they are wrong. Beauty comes in all shapes and it is in the eye of the beholder.

3.)You would never be able to listen to your favorite songs again.

4.)You could never feel rain again, never feel the warmth of a fire or breeze in the crisp fall air. You would never be able to have the feeling swimming in the ocean or the sun on your cheeks

5.)Because someone told you to kill yourself. You should never listen to anything like that, because they are not worth crying over. Not worth dying over either.

6.)

DepressionHave you seen past that smile?
Have you seen past her makeup and fake laugh?

Haven't you wonder why she barely talk?
Haven't you wonder why she doesn't eat that much when she out?

Look pass that smile.
Look pass the makeup and fake laugh.

Look in to the pain.
Look in to the sadness.

She starves her self most days.
She doesn't talk for fare she will say the wrong things.

There is more to her then you know.
There is less of her ever day.

Depression takes over her body.
Depression takes over her mind.

Was It All A Lie?The funny thing is,
You can walk past me
And totally ignore me
Acting like I don't exist
Without an inch of guilt in your black heart
After all the things we have been through
After all the times we have been there for each other
And you act like it never happened

The funny thing is,
You can look in the mirror
Thinking you're the best
Thinking you are too good for everyone
After all the things I have done for you
After all the things we have put each other through
Through thick and thin
And totally forget that I was once in your life
That you needed me

That you loved me

It's like you're a totally different per

I Want To Want ItI'm stuck
I don't know if I want out
But I want to want it.

I don't want to stop cutting
If I'm honest..
I Love the scars that are accumulating
I Love the way my limbs look
Completely covered in blood
Consumed by cuts big and small
But deep down inside
The pure me, the small piece left
wants to want to stop

I want to kill myself
So badly, It be so much easier
Just to silently stop breathing
I want it so bad I've tried
I want it like nothing else
But I don't want to want it

Deep down inside
Beneath the shiny, pink scar tissue
There is a little girl
That girl is silenced now
But she wants to be happy
She wants to live

Just take a momentSo I had a dream last night
It was really . . . nice
I had no scars
no scabs
nothing but clean skin
I looked so happy
I had tons of friends
I was being rewarded for my grades
I didn't look ill
I was wearing shorts
I was doing stuff I hasn't in years
like swimming in the ocean
or at the pool
Walking around the house in short sleeves

I couldn't help but wonder
'is this how life would be
If I didn't make that first cut?
Would I not be addicted to smoking
Or not want to drink?'
I looked so happy
It was that kind of happiness
everyone wants to reach too
The kind I would die for

This is me saying this
A girl who at the age

The Layers of SkinShe laughs out loud.
Talking to herself.
She's crazy.
She doesn't care though.
She's happy.

She laughs.
She smiles.
This girl is surrounded with her friends.
Happy with her life.

She sighes.
She cries.
She can't cope with the stress.
Stress of work.
Stress of life.

Then the feeling that all of these other feelings simmer to eventually.
Depressed.
Dead.
Down.
Drained.

She wants to scream.
She wants to shout.

She wants to let it all out.
But her anger she must bury.
Otherwise a rampage of spilling out swear words and other vile.
Out of control, reckless and stupid.
Not thinking of consequences.
So look emotionles

Down the Rabbit HolePlay this game so carefully alone
Lest a Cheshire cat deceive you.
He will grin so wickedly sweet
And then disappear like smoke.

Are your cards as black as ash
Or a dripping chrisom?
Unfortunately you die either way,
Wonderland is no place for the sane.

By the rabbits clock,
Everyone is late to madness.
So to stay, as the red queen orders,
You just have to take off your head.

Follow the mad march hare
He will lead you on to tea time.
Partake in madness,
Sip at the delicate softness of insanity before you wake.

You are the right one after all
And so this gift belongs to you.
Embrace it, Alice.
Death is just the beginning.

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~Evercrossedinlove Feb 2, 2013

Woah thats deep

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~Trish-the-Stalker Dec 6, 2012 Student General Artist

I've been there before.

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~ShadowKitty-Desu Nov 14, 2012 Student General Artist

So deep... masterpiece

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*FFairyy Nov 15, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Thank you so much. It means a lot to me. ♥

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~alittlebitoffaith Nov 9, 2012

Wow so sad but yet so true

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~CrystalOokami Nov 6, 2012 Hobbyist Photographer

This happened to my my sister and oh, i hated what he did to her...

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*FFairyy Nov 7, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

I absolutely feel with you and of course with her... I wish her all the best.

If you want to talk or something, feel free to send me a private note.

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~CrystalOokami Nov 8, 2012 Hobbyist Photographer

Thank you.

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*lonely-in-winter Nov 6, 2012 Professional Writer

Amazing! I absolutely love this!

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*FFairyy Nov 12, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

I'm glad you like it (:

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